“From the day I was born, I’ve been a “Daddy’s Girl,” but unfortunately embracing a father-daughter relationship was not a priority my dad and I shared. I’ve always had an overwhelming need to please people, especially when it came to my dad, so growing up I would do anything I could to gain his approval. Eventually that led me to sports. While it didn’t earn me the approval of my dad, it did earn me the approval of others and I started to build my entire identity around my athleticism. This instilled a very unhealthy belief that I only had value because I had muscle.
With the help of Bill and EI Solutions, I committed to a process that would help me stop striving and start walking in my purpose.
One of the steps in the process was Temperament Testing – a tool to discover our innate/inborn tendencies (a.k.a. Spiritual Genetics). Within minutes of reviewing the results (a combination of Melancholy, Supine and Phlegmatic), Bill had an unbiased insight that spoke more truth about who I was than any “honest confessions” would have. It allowed him to navigate through my false identities and incorrect scripts to uncover the roots of my issues; a key factor in cultivating genuine growth.
The biggest root I needed to uncover was not knowing whose I was. I had been raised Catholic, rejected religion and while I didn’t reject God, I thought I was fine without Him. Thankfully, God doesn’t want us to be fine alone, He wants us to be great with Him. And from the moment I invited Him back into my life, He hasn’t stopped fighting for me. Being unaware of my own spiritual and emotional brokenness, God met me where I was and used what I knew- the physical – to draw me closer to him.
In the span of two years, I experienced two broken backs, spinal surgery, shoulder surgery, post-operative infection, pneumonia/bronchitis/flu hospitalizations and the greatest blessing of all – a severe concussion. You might think I’m crazy referring to those events as blessings but as my faith grew, so did my understanding of why I needed to travel that path.
What God had given me as a gift, I had mistaken as my identity. I needed my body to betray me so I could learn to respect it. I needed to experience the extremes of my temperament so I could learn to control it. I needed to feel isolated and alone so I could learn to go to God. And I needed to forget who I was so I could learn to embrace who I am – a daughter of God, fearfully and wonderfully made, here by design with a purpose to serve.
There is more to the story but it’s not ready to be written yet. Truthfully, I wasn’t ready to write this. Every time Bill would request a testimony, I would resist; believing the devil’s lies that my story was un-relatable and lacked anything of value. Thankfully, there are those who love you as you are, and those who love you too much to leave you as you are, and I’m surrounded by the latter. The unified voices of others spoke life and love into me, reminding me how valuable vulnerability can be and the power of overcoming to become. No one said it would be easy, but turns out it’s worth it!”
It’s been a great journey of discovery with Hero, and I am so proud of her progress and growth. As she stated, through every trial, she has remained committed to her process. And God has been with her every step of the way, leading her into knowing herself, and Him, more intimately.
BH/ Contributor – Hero Heroux